Friday, October 5
the lioness and the ladybird
having a child gives me more strength, yet at the same time it makes me feel more vulnerable. it was already like that when he was in the womb. i am always on the alert to fight for him and for his needs. but sometimes his total dependence and more-than-average sensitivity strike me hard, making me wonder if i have it in me to raise him well and happy and strong. after all, i am only a girl (isn't it crazy that i still see myself as such) with insecurities and questions and worries galore. another mother told me that your worries grow as your child grows. i'm up for something then.